My heart searches restlessly
and finds no rest till it rests in thee.
O Seeker, you sought for me,
your love has found me;
I am taken by thee.
I learned this song at a prayer meeting this past Sunday called Prayer of Augustine by Ed Conlin. St. Augustine wrote this prayer after having a conversion experience. I wish I'd learned it back in the fall when I was wrestling with myself because the chorus so aptly describes what I was feeling.
When we try to do things our own way, our hearts will be restless. I knew that I had no peace at all in my soul when I was wrestling with myself in the fall. I craved peace. Day after day I wrote in my prayer journal that I just wanted peace in my soul. I tried to create peace by changing my environment--I purged my house, I cleaned and restored order. I took on new projects. I made sure to get my exercise in. Yet, it wasn't enough. I was still extremely restless.
Out of the Ashes |
Hubby says that I am a little OCD when it comes to my routine. If my routine gets messed up, I become anxious and stressed. From day one of homeschooling in January, my routine has been non-existent. The only thing consistent about my life from week to week is that it's not going to be the same as the week before. In the past, I would be a complete wreck. I would be grumpy, snappy, and a bear to live with.
Beauty |
O Seeker, you sought for me,
your love has found me;
I am taken by thee.
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